cloning.
i think thats it. i have 2 clone myself, break myself down in million pices 2 be able 2 please all, because atm i obviusly cant. whatever i do everything ends up in shit. bad there, wrong here, distant there, angry here. whatta hell am i supposed 2 do? im HUMAN, i cant do everything, i cant fix everything, im not fucking Hudini so i cant do magic and i dont know all answers on all questions. cant u just understand that? back of the pressure because, belive me, i have enough pressure on myself atm from me so i dont need anything more, it aint helping me a bit.
shadows and dark clouds. thats my mind atm. nothing positive, no happyness, no fun and i cant change that. i just wanna drown my sorrows and let them stay there, but now its impossible, everything have made its way up again. every little thing from the past have risen once again and standing and knocking on my door. i refuce to answer that because i dont know whatta hell i am supposed to do with it.
im worring all the time, on everything. what shall i do? what will happend? all the time, everything. answers i cant answer on my own. i feel that my strenght is going down by every minute and soon im gonna end laying down and wont be able to do anything because i cant take it anymore.
sometimes it feels like the world is on my shoulders.
im weak, tired and restless at the same time. how can that mix? my head is spinning, my energy is down on nothing and i cant sit still. im stressing for nothing and things only get worse all the time. i feel that im going further away from myself and into something i dont know. i cant deal with anything and im feeling useless.
see the world from my eyes, step in my shoes and see how i have it atm. then we can talk and maby, only maby, then u realice what im dealing with.
where can a tired soul find rest?
i hate the question "how are you?". what am i supposed to say? you dont want the real answer so dont ask that, i cant say how i am, you would only get nightmares.
when am i getting time to just be?
shadows and dark clouds. thats my mind atm. nothing positive, no happyness, no fun and i cant change that. i just wanna drown my sorrows and let them stay there, but now its impossible, everything have made its way up again. every little thing from the past have risen once again and standing and knocking on my door. i refuce to answer that because i dont know whatta hell i am supposed to do with it.
im worring all the time, on everything. what shall i do? what will happend? all the time, everything. answers i cant answer on my own. i feel that my strenght is going down by every minute and soon im gonna end laying down and wont be able to do anything because i cant take it anymore.
sometimes it feels like the world is on my shoulders.
im weak, tired and restless at the same time. how can that mix? my head is spinning, my energy is down on nothing and i cant sit still. im stressing for nothing and things only get worse all the time. i feel that im going further away from myself and into something i dont know. i cant deal with anything and im feeling useless.
see the world from my eyes, step in my shoes and see how i have it atm. then we can talk and maby, only maby, then u realice what im dealing with.
where can a tired soul find rest?
i hate the question "how are you?". what am i supposed to say? you dont want the real answer so dont ask that, i cant say how i am, you would only get nightmares.
when am i getting time to just be?
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